Well here's a journal that I would've never have expected myself to have ever wirte.
If you haven't noticed yet, I don't make many journals, so this is a very rare occurance for me. I have made this for a very special reason...and have asked that only women come and read this for that same reason...

It's been well over 16 years...and still I feel the same. If it wasn't for my friends being right next to me, then I would've been the loneliest man in the world. But even with my friends, I still feel lonely.
To make things short...I need a woman. My past relationships in real life haven't quite worked out too well...and now I've gone this low to rellying on the internet...but I'm willing to give it a try. I ask anyone willing if they would wish to talk. That's all I ask. I just want to talk to someone, get to know someone, start a good building friendship...and possibly into something more.
I ask you to do this willingly. It is not mandatory, I wont think any less of you if you say no or if you say yes but then change your mind later on. I just want someone that will talk and listen to me.

If you are willing to do this with me, then I would like to be able to talk often. This can mean as few as twice a week to as many as once a day, but if you want to do this then I want to be able to talk, not wait. MSN, yahoo, or even the chatrooms here will work. If we actually get somewhere and you have a verizon phone, then I could consider talking on the phone...but that is a ways off.

Please...my friends and other readers...I need that someone in my life. I guess I have just gotten so desparate that I am now begging...probably because I don't have any luck with the other sex...but please. Maybe you have felt these same feelings that I am feeling right now. If so, then lets talk.

If you are a guy reading this and want to talk, sure I'll talk to you, but not in the same way that I will with these women. I'm sorry, but I am not that way. We can be friends, but no where close to being THAT close.
If you are a guy reading this simply out of couriosity (even though I asked for only single women) and are now thinking "Wow, this is just sad! Look at this nerd trying to get a date on here!" I've just have been having some bad luck and wish to try other things. Perhaps you have felt desparation as well before...if so, then I wouldn't be talking right now.

Also, unless you are willing to do this with me, please don't let every single person in the world know what I doing right now. I don't mess with your personal business, so don't mess with mine.

That's all I have to say. My lady friends...please think before you say anything. I have had to put a lot of thought into this, so I wish that you will put some thought into it before going on ahead and choosing right then and there.
Thank you and God bless